Theist or Atheist ?
Posted by: ojasvirajpal on: January 8, 2009
I was a staunch theist in early years of my life. Someone who will read “Bhagvad Geeta” , will listen to “Satsang” 
and blah blah .. As I grew older things changed and I developed an interest in science and logic. This created logical fallacies like this and this. Apart from this the major problem in believing in a higher power is the implications it has. It implies that men do not directly and totally control there fate. I simply loathe the idea. I alone is responsible for my life or as Ayn Rand says Men is the center of universe. Hence slowly and steadily I inclined towards atheism. Truthfully I like being an atheist but there are events which are unexplainable by Science for e.g. My neurophysiology teacher had a story in which he treated a patient by reminding her of her past birth in which she was stabbed !! My father had a much more dramatic experience too where he was reminded of his previous birth by Saint via a vision.
This arises a lot of questions, questions which are difficult to answer and difficult to ask. But then why can’t I just live with it ? Simple I must know what is the truth ? Is there a God or something which is beyond logic ? If No then how do I explain the above said events and if yes then what am I doing here ? Its like I am wasting my time or may be my whole life. As a seeker I must seek truth and if there is a God I must seek him out. Why so ? Simply put because I cannot think of a better use of my time and the desire to know is excruciating. So its like I have a split personality now , one part of me is a staunch theist who would pray and meditate etc. and other is a atheist who laughs at the concept of God.
And the truth still remains conveniently hidden as ever.
P.S.
1.) Long time back a wise man said something which might be the answer but I never understood it, He replied by saying the question is immaterial.
2.) There are schools of thought which belives in reincarnation but not a God as such ( may be Buddhism) also JV has similar ideas. Trying to explore both.
3.) Try “Never say Goodbye” by Bon J Jovi awesome song
5 Responses to "Theist or Atheist ?"
January 9, 2009 at 4:04 am
I think due to complete lack of knowledge of this universe or our world, we tend to see science and religion differently. I think religion is also a science, which can’t be proven at present because of lack of knowledge of how nature works! Looking at the past we would realize that one day, on our quest to learn complete knowledge, we’d see science and religion merge into one!
Also, I agree that “man is the center of the universe” metaphorically, coz, basically man is also made of matter and energy which interacts with other matter and energies around him! 
January 15, 2009 at 11:26 pm
reminded me of this :
ajab nahi ke khuda tak teri rasai ho, \n
ki teri nigah say hai poshida aadmi ka muqaam.
rasai : reach out
poshida: hidden
January 28, 2009 at 11:24 pm
In the past, phenomena like rain, lightning and the changing of the tides were also mysterious and inexplicable, but today we know how those things work, thanks to scientifical research and logical thought 
Give it some time and more answers will come.
February 3, 2009 at 3:38 pm
This is duality. The more you divide yourself, the more lost you will be. There is no theism or atheism. There is no day, there is no night. There are no winters, there are no summers. Man divides things, he makes groups and gets lost. For there is just The One.
January 8, 2009 at 1:43 pm
Thats why I m an agnostic …. The question is arguable with both sides having strong points to support their theory